takut vs risau

hmm..i don't know what to say....scared n worried =(
yeahh..!!! that i feel now....oh my God, help me...
so, for two days i started my new semester...arrgghhhh!!!
i can do it or not..?????
why.....????? hmmm...i very shocked bcoz this sem i taken the several subject in english...i think from 8, only 1 or 2 will be learn in arabic...
english??? wahhh, hard to understand but sometime ok2 je...
arabic??? pun sama laa..lbih kurg but i lbih suke lau subjek 2 in arabic..
haha..nak kata pndai b.a x juge tp bley la ckit2..eheheee
ape yg aku risau n takut...samaada aku mampu or tidak nak lalui sume nie...
**mampu or x redah je...nak wat camne dah mang kena lalui juge coz only this way to be successful***
nak ditelan mati mak n nak dluah mati bapak...??? ngeee~btoi ke pribahasa 2 (tlg btoi'n ye lau slh..) gitu la umpama nya...

**takut vs risau**
x pernah habis aku rase...aiya, spe la nak tlg abiskan ye?
masa makin berlalu, "usim kata pergi,kerja kata confius. why??..nak mik ke x budak nie!!!!..."muet pun xlepas lg..
Ya Allah...hnya kau je yg tahu keadaanku sekarang...
kadang2 runsing gak aku fikir.takut vs risau lg + malu n segan...hmm, bestnya mereka2 yg dah lepas..aku bila nak jd mcm diorg???? tungguuuuu!!!! mudah2an~amiin..
**jgn takut,risau,malu,segan...**
sumenya kuasa Allah s.w.t..usaha tangga kejayaan!!!!